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06Jan11

The excuse for the lack of updating the blog is that I’ve been busy. The reality is that I’ve been so introspective lately, that to write here, would not only be the link between self and other, but would force the bridge between the self and the self’s other and right now, that’s complicated territory.

So much is happening, and until there’s that perfect space to elaborate and express the wonders of what is, let me just say, that what is happening is the way that it feels when you step into shoes that are way to big for you, but instantly, you feel your feet growing and molding to fit those wonderful saddle oxfords. It’s the way that you can see and feel the path, and where it’s heading, and that it’s filled with hills and sticks, but still you determinedly climb to Lake Constance. What is building is that feeling and reality of being completely, wholly, and integrally challenged into being my ultimate self. And right now, as exciting as that is, it’s also a bit terrifying. Soon, I’ll get that coxswain glare and go for it, but for now, I’m in that space of complex wonder and planning.

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This is the first winter where I am calmly whole: it’s the first winter that my mind isn’t rebelling against the weather. After a recent and miserably hot mashrutka ride, I’ve officially decided that I would rather those windows be frosted over on the inside, and be miserably cold, than sweating atrociously – even if it’s atrociously cold outside. It is also worth mentioning that this winter is REALLY mild. By mild, there aren’t layers upon layers of ice, just one-ish layer.

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