practicing better

12Nov10

Today was one of those days….not one of those days, but one of those days.

Today, we finally started our HIV training project. My day started at 4am, with me staring at my phone, not understanding what I was holding or why it was making noise. I stared at it for a long while, until I understood what a telephone was, why it was making noise, and that it meant I should get ready to go to the Avtovokzal and meet one of the coolest trainers about. Later, we had our training, which didn’t go as planned, but worked well anyway. As we brought all our materials back to the organization, the door was locked… there was a celebration going on inside: one of the specialists got married that day. This means we sat around a table full of food and other stuff. A while afterwards, we had to say goodbye to the cool trainer, and instead of going home, I went to the super awesome family in my town, and hung out…and that’s when it hit me again: no matter what happens after this, the friendships and importance of those that have formed here, aren’t going to leave after I leave… for me, they’re indelible friendships.

Walking home, in one of those quiet talk talk conversations with a friend, I stood on the train tracks gazing down at my city, quiet and dimly twinkled with lights, and the feeling of being washed ran through my energy.

……..The alarm’s gone off. and after staring in idle confusion, I’ve finally realized why I need to get out and do who I am. It’s definitely time to meander into that territory of the unforeknowable again… The longer and longer I’m on this path, the deeper and deeper the realization that ‘people are the most important thing in the world’ grows. However it can be, I want my life to be about this: about creating the opportunity for others to be and do who they are….

watch out now.

I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to explain, sufficiently, how or why or what Ukraine is to me, nor how important to me are the people that I’ve met in the last 1.5 years. I won’t be able to express how much I’ve changed nor grown, nor how much further I want to go…I don’t know if I’ll be able to explain to its core why the three main principles in my life are communication, art, and international community projects.

Today was one of those days that said yes, do it. and if you forget, then yes, do it.

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