rainy lists
The Last three posts have only been about donating to the special needs project https://www.peacecorps.gov/index.cfm?shell=resources.donors.contribute.projDetail&projdesc=343-181, and so it’s time to say something more. However, what I will say about donations is this:
- If you donate within the next two weeks, your donation is being matched by my fly friend. (see the post ‘It’s sleeve-ossible’ )..also, when you donate, please let me know, as I won’t have the list of people who donate until the total fund is received by donors like you.
- Please take up the Thanksgiving challenge (see the previous post) to help raise money for the project.
- If there’s one meaningful thing I can do here, this project is it…so please please help and donate.
Something more:
I’ve been learning alot and growing much. On a trip back from my oblast center, I sat in the back of the Mashrutka, processing a very long day that required alot of concentration to defuse a situation while simultaneously lead a meeting. As we stopped to pick up more people on our way out of town in the rainy dark, I literally experienced my body physically morphing into an adult, moving out of the stage of relying on role-models to provide ways to be who I want to be. I’m now on that road to being able to be completely and wholly me, where I can look to myself to be myself, and do that work.
That was a while ago.
Recently, the general has gone to the specificities that make the general. I’ve been developing the practice of lists and ways. My lists have gone from ‘what’ (‘Figure out … write an email to…. visit… plan meeting of…. talk to….) to ‘how to what’ (what was ‘what’ now looks like ‘do this’ ‘do this this and this’). Of course it looks much longer than my lists used to look, but the amazing thing is that it all actually gets done, and I get the pleasure of crossing more things off the list. Translated, I’ve gotten to a point in my life where it’s possible to be more clear in how to get what needs to be done done. AND it works!
That clarity has led into this newness: being able to come up with ways and ideas to make what you desire to have happen happen, and to do it in a way that is more holistic, responsive and creative. Basically as of now, things like grant writing and super-precarious social interactions are well handled and, talking to people who are directors/professors/super cool people is less intimidating, and more than way cool. - I’ve found out that it’s not as hard as I always thought it was. Now, I’m living into the realization that the art and wonder of networking is fully ingrained in who I am and who I want to be.
I’ve also been reflecting on all of the things that have developed/are developing in this whole experience. Literally, everything I dreamt up pre-PC that would happen here, is happening/has happened. This isn’t to say that everything has been perfect, but that everything has been a very big learning practice. Before coming, I was trying to get over the bizarre complex beauty to this endeavor, and was trying to figure out what happens after you do something you dream of, and the simple answer of, ‘you dream of something else’ wasn’t settling. The answer I’ve figured out is,’what you dream of, you don’t stop dreaming it, you just live it a different way.’
Stay tuned for the next post on projects and new projects, and just really, all about projects.
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